I have to admit… There were times when I felt so burdened by my “MAGIC”!
You see, miracles are my business. I seem to have this great ability to pull magic out of thin air or make the impossible possible.
But, there was a time when it got OH-SO-TIRING that it took me some time to fully own and accept that integral part of me.
I felt like pulling someone’s hair when I received a late night call from one of my mom’s amigas asking for “yet” another favor that “is” small but usually took a lot of energy to sort out.
There was a time when I almost went berserk with the number of calls I received from an aunt in a span of an hour who was coming to visit Taipei – I mean, come on! She has three sons of similar age and she can easily ask them to check the Google map on the distance between her hotel and the metro.
During those moments, I felt cursed – “Why the H am I this capable and dependable?”
Why do people think I have the solutions to all the problems?
Why do others constantly want me to sort out their mess?
It’s funny how these “thoughts” that used to come in my mind no longer visit me when I get requests after requests.
And, I can certainly remember when they stopped bugging me – THE MOMENT I EMBRACED MY “MAGIC”:
Miracles are my business.
I provide solutions.
People feel calm, comforted and confident after talking to me.
All these above are what I bring to the table so there should be nothing to feel burdened about!
What’s weighing heavily then was not my “magic”.
It was the FEAR of being stolen from and being ripped off.
It was the FEAR of being taken advantage of.
It was the FEAR of being unrelatable for being too capable.
That FEAR was WEIGHING ME DOWN!
That FEAR was the BURDEN!
That FEAR was what I was RUNNING AWAY FROM!
Then, I remember this quote from Spiderman – “With great power comes great responsibility.”
And I realized that…
Each of us comes with our own magic.
Each of us has our gifts.
Each of us is blessed with this amazing power that lights the world.
Enjoying them will bring joy.
Refusing them will bring sorrow.
I’d rather have the joy than the sorrow!
And, that, My Dear Reader,
Made me FULLY OWN MY MAGIC, MY LIGHT, MY SUPERPOWER!
So which would u rather have, the joy or the sorrow?
Blessing of miracles,