In 2012, I felt like SH*T. I was very involved in the ESL community and was freelancing in copy, PR and POIs. AND I WAS RAKING IT IN… But something was wrong. I couldn’t breathe. There was this void inside me that I couldn’t fill. I decided that ESL and freelancing was not for me anymore.
I only saw what was wrong. And everything was! The students/clients did not light me up anymore. I was already feeling anxious and bitter. So I wanted to run… fast!
Because of my residency status where I am, I didn’t fully let go of the work (and thank goodness for that!). But I went head on and dove deep looking for what would make me sparkle again! I went into countless of ideas, endeavors and investment. ALL HAD FAILED ME.
In wanting to find myself again, I TURNED OFF PARTS OF MYSELF TO FIT INTO WHAT I THOUGHT WAS MISSING.
When all I needed was simply GET THE PIECES THAT WORKED and ADD IN OTHER PARTS OF MYSELF.
The issue was not ESL or freelancing. The issue was the lack of variety and the limited number of souls I could reach.
FAST FORWARD to today.
I’ve taken all the things that I loved in my pastand combined them with what I want for my future. And I made it all become my present.
The past haunts us when we fail to face all of it – the good, the bad and the in-between.
Tell me, what about your past are you resisting to acknowledge? And this applies to both good or bad. I’ll give you my two cents.
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